excuse my language but fucking breakthrough, i started messing around with push technique and was able to do it on a pen. but the most important thing is i found how to gather chi from other sources. there is a street light right out front my house that I've been turning off when i go to sleep for the past couple of months now because it shines in my window(another story) but tonight i started gathering it through my left arm and as I'm doing it i feel my right hand building up with energy. the feeling is literally an orgasm   . ill add videos of both demonstrations tomorrow

 great to hear bro!