Your movements at first seem a bit impatient, like you lack concentration, then they become agitated up to a point were you finally perceive movement and start to remember it, that you can sense it, and then you just interact more gracefully with it. Lack of control can derive from your own mentality and concentration on your senses, also from the positions of your hands. For example if you are focusing on the sensation in your hands you can be fooled by thinking that the curvature in your left helps you push, while in fact this mental pressure will more probably intensify the feeling of your palm, contracting your fingers back to you, results in in a contradictory message, you mentally want to push, but are feeling the pull.
