i think my soul is some sort of earth gaurdian or something i feel VERY LARGE amounts of empathy towards the bad things in life even if they are minute
my stepmother is a wasteful excuse of a human being she stays so over medicated its not even funny shes like a damn zombie
she doesnt clean and all she does is lay there and complain about what hurts her for 2 weeks she is a downright PAIN in the ass until father gets paid then shes bouncing off the fucking walls
all the other times she wastes whole plates of food and complains it makes her sick, just today she took 2 bites out of a bowl of chicken noodle soup and threw it out i have felt so morbid over that since!
when we had a previous house before we had to move in with my grandmother that house was downright disgusting piles of clothes everywhere dishes piled 4 ft high with dead rats in the sink because they drowned and she wouldnt wash them
now here there is 4 animals down stairs where they stay that never get taken out there is pee in the floor food in the floor on the wall clothes piled everywhere
goodness gracious i cant take it anymore i just cant all these emotions and stress i cant

Be the change brother.

In an ideal world, how would you want things to be?

i cant say anything though i want to avoid drama i already have enough empathy running through me as it is i can block it most of the time but there is times when i cant it just breaks through my barrier
i want everything to be peaceful and without any fighting but theres no way to do it
in an idea world i would make everyone get along no fighting drama bullshit or the like it would be a utopia

that sucks   I may somehow understand how that feels. It drains the energy out of me if Im in your situations. I usually just talk to the person causing it, but in your case that seems tough.

its blocking me from doing anything psychic i cant do anything but heal during this time its like it places some sort of dislike bubble that makes me slightly uninterested